Xuxinha Love

Only you would understand this picture (L'

Even though you're not literally here, it feels like you are. No one would ever understand all that we've been through, because it's only known by those who live it. I wish there was a specific word for all of this, and I wish I could say "love" is this word, but we both know it's way beyond love. Everything plays in my head like a movie, but I can't seem to find the right words to express myself. It would be pointless to try to explain anyways..

Letters, Songs, Long Lasting Conversations..

Is 3 years enough?

Every breath I take, every tear I cry, every word I say..

I love you, Je t'aime, Te quiero, Eu te amo!

♥

It's our story, it's our destiny, & I'll never let it end, I PROMISE!

Taking Time To Think



09-03-09

I can clearly recall all of the moments we all had together, since the first day we all became friends. Can you guys remember any of it? It feels as if it was yesterday!

Brenda, I remember seeing you as a quiet girl.. I don't perfectly recall meeting you, I think  Caitlyn was the one who kind of brought you towards us. I loved the way that.. you would say whatever came to mind. And I found it cute that you always made sure your peace and love was involved in your thoughts and in your actions.. Until you became a vegetarian, which that's another story..lol 

Caitlyn, you were still the same girl I've known back in the 4th grade. Well, not completely.. years had passed, and we didn't really know each other. In fact, back in the 7th grade we were somewhat enemies.. but we hung around during Summer Bridge. I guess High School was a challenge to be faced by both of us.. and that's why we sort of stuck together. lol 

Zubaydah! Man, I clearly remember meeting you. Caitlyn & I met you and Anne-Marie(sp?).. we had to interview one another. It was cool, but embarrassing! lol What surprised me the most was the fact that you seemed to have trusted me right away. It was the second day of Summer Bridge and I had asked you for the book we were supposed to read over the Summer, which I never got to finish, because I had to return mine to the Library... Well, you let me borrow your book. It might have not been a big deal to you, but I want to let you know that it was very important to me having you trusting me.. I knew we would soon become besties, and so we did. :)

Quintin, or better yet, Q, we also became closer because of Caitlyn, because of course, you guys started dating.. I'm glad, because I got to meet you, and you're a guy friend in which I can truly trust. And just for the record, we def. need to talk more lol.. where have you been boy? I miss having the crazy you around lol... Six Flags hat, etc hahaha oh gee.. lets stop there lol.

Tony, we met because of Q :) And I'm glad we did too .. it's good to have someone that understands me around.. we used to talk a lot more.. sorry for shifting away.. I guess being independent gets in my way a lot...but I also hope that you understand..

Anyways guys, we broke apart in these last couple of months.. and I can number several reasons, and I'm sure you can as well.. but of course, lets not blame anybody else.. everyone has a part in it, even me, and it's fine to admit it. I highly doubt that our friendships will go back to what it was before.. I would love it if it did.. but we all know things happen and people change.. I just hope we don't completely fall apart..

Guys, I love all of you, and I hope we can make this work.. and stick together until the end, even though we have our differences..

From someone who truly cares,

Diana



Finding Love,Holding On,Letting Go...

I'm on the phone with you and all I can think about is to imagine what would be like to be with you right now. I can vividly imagine all the moments we had together.. the laughs, the cries, the embarrassing moments, the arguments, and everything else that comes with it. I was determined to live life for you, to be with you. I was determined to go through it all, even if it took my soul. I don't think you can imagine how much I love you because you're too busy loving somebody else. I wish I could do something, but I know that I can't. I guess that's what hurts the most, because even though letting go hurts, just knowing that I can't change your love for me, hurts even more. Hearing your voice, hearing you sing.. I'm deeply in love and I'm still scared to admit it. I'm trying to heal.. I wanted you as far away as possible for now, but that wouldn't cure me. Being away from you wouldn't make things any easier. I guess I just got used to having you around.

Today was kind of hard... I wanted that kiss as much as you, but I couldn't, that wouldn't help me at all. It would just make it harder to let go...But when we hugged, I felt peaceful, like I can be with you without suffering..It's just that I didn't want it to be our last kiss, not that way, not today, rushed up or w.e. because I cherish the last time we were together. It wasn't the best moment, but it was surely a perfect moment. If you stop to think about it, we shared everything we could in those last minutes together.. I cried on your shoulder, we hugged, we touched each other's face, we stared at each other, our fingers locked, we made promises, and we kissed... and once again the silent wasn't awkward at all.. everything just felt natural. And I guess that's the image that I want to have every time I think of our last kiss, because it was special for both of us, I'm sure..

 Anyways, I love when you talk to yourself out loud,even though you don't admit it. I love all the things you say, all the things you do. I would make you so happy, I wish you knew.

My throat is dry, I can't go through a day without thinking about you at least once.. well, at least not for now. But I don't regret anything, I'm glad it happened. After all, we just became closer and now I can say your my bestfriend. Thank you for still being around, for not giving up on us, at least not as friends.. I have a good feeling about it this time.. I hope you do too.. then we can finally say that "this could be something.."